SINO ANG DAPAT SISIHIN?

Sino nga ba? Tanga ka edi ikaw! Oh yes! I was always blamed to all that fucking matter!

Simple lang naman dapat ang buhay...Gumising sa umaga, magsipilyo, maligo, kumain, magtrabaho, umuwi sa bahay, kumain matulog. Pero bakit ba sakin parang kahit kelan hindi nagiging simple ang lahat! Tanga ka alam mo ang sagot.... kasi ginawa mong komplikado. Pinasan mo ang pangarap ng ibang tao.

Maraming chances na siguro sobrang malawak na yung mundo ko. Like I was conquering countries to countries, manage a multi-billion company or maybe bigger and wider than that. Pero that was not where I am right now. Nandito ako to help someone grow up and make them feel that they are successful. Pumasok ako sa mundo na ndi akin para makatulong.

But why do i allow everyone to act as if I do not do something good to them? Why do I always feel that no matter how hard I tried to help and bring them up nobody cares about the term "appreciation" It happened to me alot of times... to one of my best friends where i told all my top secrets in sales just to bring her sales up, to my family na kahit ndi ko na kaya at alam kong mahihirapan ako tutumbling pa rin ako to make them feel secure at sa kaisa-isang lalaking wala akong ginawa kundi magsakripisyo. LAHAT YAN I ENDED UP CRYING TO DESPERATION na one day I will hear their Thank you and I appreciate you! But in times of mess nobody cares and no one knows how those words will uplift my spirit. Masisisi at masisigawan ka pa!

Am I too selfish sa sarili ko? hahaha bago yun! (Selfish sa sarili lol) Is this sacrifice worth dying for? I guess yes, because ngayon I felt like i was dying, my heart is dying, i got numb and weak pakiramdam ko I was in a cage na lahat ng mabbangis na hayop nilalapa ako. But does anyone know how I felt? yes...sino? yung computer ko hahaha. In short wala! no one knows how i felt and no one knows kung paano ako i rescue. Eh simple lang naman.... i just need someone to hug me so tight and let me know how much I mean to them and how much they love and appreciate me.

But again no one to be blame except ME! Ako na walang ginawa kundi maging masaya para sa iba kahit na yung simpleng kaligayahan na yakapin at maappreciate ka hindi ko mauha, Well, that's life! Sabi nga ni God... and tawag dyan FREE WILL. Pinili mong magsakripisyo kaya pinili mo ding mahirapan.

Note: Lord Rescue Me!